Be The Change For Kyle

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You Were Not Meant To Save Me

You were not meant to save me

I wasn’t meant to stay

So please stop blaming yourself

Since I have gone away

My time on Earth was over

There’s something you should know

My soul had reached its Growth there

It was my time to go

Don’t cry for all the Could Have’s

The What If’s and If Only

Let go of all the guilt you hold

Then you won’t feel so lonely

I Graduated life there

And into Heaven’s light

I live within God’s peace here

My soul is perfectly Bright

Life there is but a chapter

Of a book that carries on

I’m just on the next page now

I really am not gone

The Angels up in Heaven

Help me watch you as you live

Your life there isn’t over yet

You have so much to give

Your life there will touch others

Just as my life there touched you

So be sure to touch them softly

And place love within their view

Just know this will make sense someday

We will look back and smile

You are just merely passing through

We only stay there for a while

So please hold on to my love

As you walk through life each day

And know that I am right here

And Right here, I’ll always stay

 

Written With Love,

Fara Gibson Psychic Medium

Heart Pillow made by Kori
By Cindy Kocsis 20 Mar, 2022
I can't tell you how much it warms my heart when people remember Kyle!! We went to visit his bench last night, and someone put flowers there! What a wonderful surprise!! Thank you so very much to whomever did that--just knowing you're thinking of him too makes us so very happy! AND, my good friend Kori Thornton made this heart pillow in memory of Kyle! I was so happy when she gave it to me a few days ago!! It says, "Kyle was so amazing God made him an Angel" Kori's son Tim and Kyle were really good friends throughout middle school, high school, and remained close and always kept in contact. They were snowboarding buddies and both loved to play chess. Here's a photo of them in 2008 playing chess Kori and I have had a few conversations about the topic--and I know it's a tough one--do you mention that child to a parent who's grieving? I certainly wouldn't have known either--but I've heard it so many times now it just can't be me, and it must be so very true--Just hearing the name of our loved one who has passed is MUSIC to our ears! That's how I feel and that's exactly how other mothers have described it! I know--you hate to bring up the subject and worry it will make us sad. But guess what? We think about them all the time already. And just hearing a memory or his name, or seeing a gesture like the flowers is just so heartwarming and uplifting--I really can't describe it. So Thank You Kori and wonderful person(s) who added flowers to Kyle's bench this week!! Written by Kyle's mother - Cindy Kocsis 
Kocsis Family
By Nagymama - Katie Kocsis - Abbotsford, Canada 04 Jun, 2021
My Dear Kyle, I miss you today and everyday. I have pictures of you in every room. When I Think of you I try to remember all the wonderful times we had together. Now you are in heaven and would like to think you are with Nagypapa looking down to us. May God's peace be with you. You are in my heart for ever, love Nagymama
Grandma Betty and Kyle
By Grandma Betty 31 May, 2021
Dear Kyle, In the beginning, just thinking I could be a Grandma was such a joy. Looking forward to your arrival was my go-to topic; whenever I had a chance to get it into a conversation. I am sure my clients at work were as excited as I was. What an exciting time when you arrived. Of course, you being so laid back you didn’t make it an easy entrance for our daughter and Mother to be. We all had some very stressful hours waiting for your arrival. Oh my gosh, your parents had worked so hard getting everything ready for you. Your room was a many many hours plan and work for your parents. Every detail was planned and figured out. You had many visitors and well-wishers. You were such a delight. As you were a bit older, you loved to hear animal stories. When you saw a photo of a lion you said ROAR, That was what the lion did so that became your name for lion. It was adorable. I guess I have to say, Kyle, you were able to enjoy the moment all thru your life. So many times we really enjoyed the music and band; judo and knew you were having a good time. Whatever you were doing, you saw the positive side. Saying goodbye has been so difficult. I know you felt all our love, I miss your little notes and messages; my last one was Mothers Day. Till we meet again,  hugs from Grandma.
beach
By Theresa 30 May, 2021
Dear Kyle’s family,  I regret that I never met this young man, but I feel that this website allowed me a glimpse into his amazing life and personality. As his parents, I hope you can be blessed with a degree of solace knowing that your son touched so many people in a positive way during the days he was here, and even now as he will not be forgotten. Hugs, Theresa
Aunt Christine Reimer & Kyle Kocsis
By Auntie Christina Betty 07 May, 2021
Dear Kyle, I just can’t believe you are just gone forever just like that, so fast. Here one day and gone the next. No more huge tight Kyle hugs? Or your thoughtful gifts, and no more deep meaningful conversations? Just gone doesn't seem possible. How can time keep moving forward if you are not here? Instead of Holidays and Family Gatherings we are left with Angel Days (death anniversaries) and Birthdays that will never happen again for you, and we are left with questions. ??? Where are you now? Are you ok? Better? HAPPY? Did we love you enough? Did you feel our love? What could we have done differently? What could I have said or done? Maybe something I should have not done or said? Question, Question, Question So now I’m left wondering. I look for you here and sometimes I can catch a glimpse of someone who reminds me so much of you that I just…stop. I see you in young men who are traveling from place to place and look like they haven't been home for a while. I see you in the kind gestures of others. In my mind I see you when I am awake and sometimes when I am lucky in my dreams--We will all be sitting around a table eating, talking or playing games, we are all camping. You are there in the dream with us, just like you never left. I try to hold onto the happiness it gives me, to believe you never left us, into my waking day; but your absence is too profound for that. Since you did leave, I am trying hard every single day in life to Be The Change. I am trying for you, and also for myself. It really helps me feel better to see some good in the world because we've been in short supply this last year for sure. You were so much to so many. You are missed always. Love you Forever Kyle, Auntie Christina Betty April 2021
By Alexander Kocsis 10 Jul, 2020
Kyle, Words cannot easily express the pain and grief I feel when I think of you passing. It is something I know I will carry with me for the rest of my life. Yet this pain is lightened by the knowledge that your memory will live through me and many others. Your humor, curiosity, kindness, and honesty are qualities that I, and everyone who knew you, will remember forever. I must admit though, that it is things like your giggles, your smiles, your puns, our conversations and especially your hugs that I will miss most. It breaks my heart to know that any child of mine will never meet you, but I know the stories and memories I share with them will unite you with them all the same. I promise to carry you with me Kyle, from wondrous sights, family occasions, life events and more, you will be present in memory and spirit, this I know. Thank you for all your lessons, thank you for inspiring me to be true to myself as you were to yourself. I love you. ~ Always and forever your little brother and friend, Alexander
Kyle & Aunt Christine
By Aunt Christine Reimer 30 Jun, 2020
What an amazing opportunity to bond with Kyle from the beginning when I babysat him. From there my love only grew each time I saw him for sleepovers and game nights at our home. Kyle had a joy for life and was invested in play or conversation. Kyle was intellectually smart, but more importantly kind, thoughtful, generous, honest and loved well. I hold onto the memories as I miss him so much. Thankful for his faith in Jesus so that we know he is enjoying eternity with the one true God who loves him so much. Love you Kyle. ~ Aunt Christine

You Were Not Meant To Save Me

You were not meant to save me

I wasn’t meant to stay

So please stop blaming yourself

Since I have gone away

My time on Earth was over

There’s something you should know

My soul had reached its Growth there

It was my time to go

Don’t cry for all the Could Have’s

The What If’s and If Only

Let go of all the guilt you hold

Then you won’t feel so lonely

I Graduated life there

And into Heaven’s light

I live within God’s peace here

My soul is perfectly Bright

Life there is but a chapter

Of a book that carries on

I’m just on the next page now

I really am not gone

The Angels up in Heaven

Help me watch you as you live

Your life there isn’t over yet

You have so much to give

Your life there will touch others

Just as my life there touched you

So be sure to touch them softly

And place love within their view

Just know this will make sense someday

We will look back and smile

You are just merely passing through

We only stay there for a while

So please hold on to my love

As you walk through life each day

And know that I am right here

And Right here, I’ll always stay

 

Written With Love,

Fara Gibson Psychic Medium



Heart Pillow made by Kori
By Cindy Kocsis 20 Mar, 2022
I can't tell you how much it warms my heart when people remember Kyle!! We went to visit his bench last night, and someone put flowers there! What a wonderful surprise!! Thank you so very much to whomever did that--just knowing you're thinking of him too makes us so very happy! AND, my good friend Kori Thornton made this heart pillow in memory of Kyle! I was so happy when she gave it to me a few days ago!! It says, "Kyle was so amazing God made him an Angel" Kori's son Tim and Kyle were really good friends throughout middle school, high school, and remained close and always kept in contact. They were snowboarding buddies and both loved to play chess. Here's a photo of them in 2008 playing chess Kori and I have had a few conversations about the topic--and I know it's a tough one--do you mention that child to a parent who's grieving? I certainly wouldn't have known either--but I've heard it so many times now it just can't be me, and it must be so very true--Just hearing the name of our loved one who has passed is MUSIC to our ears! That's how I feel and that's exactly how other mothers have described it! I know--you hate to bring up the subject and worry it will make us sad. But guess what? We think about them all the time already. And just hearing a memory or his name, or seeing a gesture like the flowers is just so heartwarming and uplifting--I really can't describe it. So Thank You Kori and wonderful person(s) who added flowers to Kyle's bench this week!! Written by Kyle's mother - Cindy Kocsis 
Kocsis Family
By Nagymama - Katie Kocsis - Abbotsford, Canada 04 Jun, 2021
My Dear Kyle, I miss you today and everyday. I have pictures of you in every room. When I Think of you I try to remember all the wonderful times we had together. Now you are in heaven and would like to think you are with Nagypapa looking down to us. May God's peace be with you. You are in my heart for ever, love Nagymama
Grandma Betty and Kyle
By Grandma Betty 31 May, 2021
Dear Kyle, In the beginning, just thinking I could be a Grandma was such a joy. Looking forward to your arrival was my go-to topic; whenever I had a chance to get it into a conversation. I am sure my clients at work were as excited as I was. What an exciting time when you arrived. Of course, you being so laid back you didn’t make it an easy entrance for our daughter and Mother to be. We all had some very stressful hours waiting for your arrival. Oh my gosh, your parents had worked so hard getting everything ready for you. Your room was a many many hours plan and work for your parents. Every detail was planned and figured out. You had many visitors and well-wishers. You were such a delight. As you were a bit older, you loved to hear animal stories. When you saw a photo of a lion you said ROAR, That was what the lion did so that became your name for lion. It was adorable. I guess I have to say, Kyle, you were able to enjoy the moment all thru your life. So many times we really enjoyed the music and band; judo and knew you were having a good time. Whatever you were doing, you saw the positive side. Saying goodbye has been so difficult. I know you felt all our love, I miss your little notes and messages; my last one was Mothers Day. Till we meet again,  hugs from Grandma.
beach
By Theresa 30 May, 2021
Dear Kyle’s family,  I regret that I never met this young man, but I feel that this website allowed me a glimpse into his amazing life and personality. As his parents, I hope you can be blessed with a degree of solace knowing that your son touched so many people in a positive way during the days he was here, and even now as he will not be forgotten. Hugs, Theresa
Aunt Christine Reimer & Kyle Kocsis
By Auntie Christina Betty 07 May, 2021
Dear Kyle, I just can’t believe you are just gone forever just like that, so fast. Here one day and gone the next. No more huge tight Kyle hugs? Or your thoughtful gifts, and no more deep meaningful conversations? Just gone doesn't seem possible. How can time keep moving forward if you are not here? Instead of Holidays and Family Gatherings we are left with Angel Days (death anniversaries) and Birthdays that will never happen again for you, and we are left with questions. ??? Where are you now? Are you ok? Better? HAPPY? Did we love you enough? Did you feel our love? What could we have done differently? What could I have said or done? Maybe something I should have not done or said? Question, Question, Question So now I’m left wondering. I look for you here and sometimes I can catch a glimpse of someone who reminds me so much of you that I just…stop. I see you in young men who are traveling from place to place and look like they haven't been home for a while. I see you in the kind gestures of others. In my mind I see you when I am awake and sometimes when I am lucky in my dreams--We will all be sitting around a table eating, talking or playing games, we are all camping. You are there in the dream with us, just like you never left. I try to hold onto the happiness it gives me, to believe you never left us, into my waking day; but your absence is too profound for that. Since you did leave, I am trying hard every single day in life to Be The Change. I am trying for you, and also for myself. It really helps me feel better to see some good in the world because we've been in short supply this last year for sure. You were so much to so many. You are missed always. Love you Forever Kyle, Auntie Christina Betty April 2021
By Alexander Kocsis 10 Jul, 2020
Kyle, Words cannot easily express the pain and grief I feel when I think of you passing. It is something I know I will carry with me for the rest of my life. Yet this pain is lightened by the knowledge that your memory will live through me and many others. Your humor, curiosity, kindness, and honesty are qualities that I, and everyone who knew you, will remember forever. I must admit though, that it is things like your giggles, your smiles, your puns, our conversations and especially your hugs that I will miss most. It breaks my heart to know that any child of mine will never meet you, but I know the stories and memories I share with them will unite you with them all the same. I promise to carry you with me Kyle, from wondrous sights, family occasions, life events and more, you will be present in memory and spirit, this I know. Thank you for all your lessons, thank you for inspiring me to be true to myself as you were to yourself. I love you. ~ Always and forever your little brother and friend, Alexander
Kyle & Aunt Christine
By Aunt Christine Reimer 30 Jun, 2020
What an amazing opportunity to bond with Kyle from the beginning when I babysat him. From there my love only grew each time I saw him for sleepovers and game nights at our home. Kyle had a joy for life and was invested in play or conversation. Kyle was intellectually smart, but more importantly kind, thoughtful, generous, honest and loved well. I hold onto the memories as I miss him so much. Thankful for his faith in Jesus so that we know he is enjoying eternity with the one true God who loves him so much. Love you Kyle. ~ Aunt Christine
Heart Pillow made by Kori
By Cindy Kocsis 20 Mar, 2022
I can't tell you how much it warms my heart when people remember Kyle!! We went to visit his bench last night, and someone put flowers there! What a wonderful surprise!! Thank you so very much to whomever did that--just knowing you're thinking of him too makes us so very happy! AND, my good friend Kori Thornton made this heart pillow in memory of Kyle! I was so happy when she gave it to me a few days ago!! It says, "Kyle was so amazing God made him an Angel" Kori's son Tim and Kyle were really good friends throughout middle school, high school, and remained close and always kept in contact. They were snowboarding buddies and both loved to play chess. Here's a photo of them in 2008 playing chess Kori and I have had a few conversations about the topic--and I know it's a tough one--do you mention that child to a parent who's grieving? I certainly wouldn't have known either--but I've heard it so many times now it just can't be me, and it must be so very true--Just hearing the name of our loved one who has passed is MUSIC to our ears! That's how I feel and that's exactly how other mothers have described it! I know--you hate to bring up the subject and worry it will make us sad. But guess what? We think about them all the time already. And just hearing a memory or his name, or seeing a gesture like the flowers is just so heartwarming and uplifting--I really can't describe it. So Thank You Kori and wonderful person(s) who added flowers to Kyle's bench this week!! Written by Kyle's mother - Cindy Kocsis 
Kocsis Family
By Nagymama - Katie Kocsis - Abbotsford, Canada 04 Jun, 2021
My Dear Kyle, I miss you today and everyday. I have pictures of you in every room. When I Think of you I try to remember all the wonderful times we had together. Now you are in heaven and would like to think you are with Nagypapa looking down to us. May God's peace be with you. You are in my heart for ever, love Nagymama
Grandma Betty and Kyle
By Grandma Betty 31 May, 2021
Dear Kyle, In the beginning, just thinking I could be a Grandma was such a joy. Looking forward to your arrival was my go-to topic; whenever I had a chance to get it into a conversation. I am sure my clients at work were as excited as I was. What an exciting time when you arrived. Of course, you being so laid back you didn’t make it an easy entrance for our daughter and Mother to be. We all had some very stressful hours waiting for your arrival. Oh my gosh, your parents had worked so hard getting everything ready for you. Your room was a many many hours plan and work for your parents. Every detail was planned and figured out. You had many visitors and well-wishers. You were such a delight. As you were a bit older, you loved to hear animal stories. When you saw a photo of a lion you said ROAR, That was what the lion did so that became your name for lion. It was adorable. I guess I have to say, Kyle, you were able to enjoy the moment all thru your life. So many times we really enjoyed the music and band; judo and knew you were having a good time. Whatever you were doing, you saw the positive side. Saying goodbye has been so difficult. I know you felt all our love, I miss your little notes and messages; my last one was Mothers Day. Till we meet again,  hugs from Grandma.
beach
By Theresa 30 May, 2021
Dear Kyle’s family,  I regret that I never met this young man, but I feel that this website allowed me a glimpse into his amazing life and personality. As his parents, I hope you can be blessed with a degree of solace knowing that your son touched so many people in a positive way during the days he was here, and even now as he will not be forgotten. Hugs, Theresa
Aunt Christine Reimer & Kyle Kocsis
By Auntie Christina Betty 07 May, 2021
Dear Kyle, I just can’t believe you are just gone forever just like that, so fast. Here one day and gone the next. No more huge tight Kyle hugs? Or your thoughtful gifts, and no more deep meaningful conversations? Just gone doesn't seem possible. How can time keep moving forward if you are not here? Instead of Holidays and Family Gatherings we are left with Angel Days (death anniversaries) and Birthdays that will never happen again for you, and we are left with questions. ??? Where are you now? Are you ok? Better? HAPPY? Did we love you enough? Did you feel our love? What could we have done differently? What could I have said or done? Maybe something I should have not done or said? Question, Question, Question So now I’m left wondering. I look for you here and sometimes I can catch a glimpse of someone who reminds me so much of you that I just…stop. I see you in young men who are traveling from place to place and look like they haven't been home for a while. I see you in the kind gestures of others. In my mind I see you when I am awake and sometimes when I am lucky in my dreams--We will all be sitting around a table eating, talking or playing games, we are all camping. You are there in the dream with us, just like you never left. I try to hold onto the happiness it gives me, to believe you never left us, into my waking day; but your absence is too profound for that. Since you did leave, I am trying hard every single day in life to Be The Change. I am trying for you, and also for myself. It really helps me feel better to see some good in the world because we've been in short supply this last year for sure. You were so much to so many. You are missed always. Love you Forever Kyle, Auntie Christina Betty April 2021
By Alexander Kocsis 10 Jul, 2020
Kyle, Words cannot easily express the pain and grief I feel when I think of you passing. It is something I know I will carry with me for the rest of my life. Yet this pain is lightened by the knowledge that your memory will live through me and many others. Your humor, curiosity, kindness, and honesty are qualities that I, and everyone who knew you, will remember forever. I must admit though, that it is things like your giggles, your smiles, your puns, our conversations and especially your hugs that I will miss most. It breaks my heart to know that any child of mine will never meet you, but I know the stories and memories I share with them will unite you with them all the same. I promise to carry you with me Kyle, from wondrous sights, family occasions, life events and more, you will be present in memory and spirit, this I know. Thank you for all your lessons, thank you for inspiring me to be true to myself as you were to yourself. I love you. ~ Always and forever your little brother and friend, Alexander
Kyle & Aunt Christine
By Aunt Christine Reimer 30 Jun, 2020
What an amazing opportunity to bond with Kyle from the beginning when I babysat him. From there my love only grew each time I saw him for sleepovers and game nights at our home. Kyle had a joy for life and was invested in play or conversation. Kyle was intellectually smart, but more importantly kind, thoughtful, generous, honest and loved well. I hold onto the memories as I miss him so much. Thankful for his faith in Jesus so that we know he is enjoying eternity with the one true God who loves him so much. Love you Kyle. ~ Aunt Christine

You Were Not Meant To Save Me


You were not meant to save me

I wasn’t meant to stay

So please stop blaming yourself

Since I have gone away

My time on Earth was over

There’s something you should know

My soul had reached its Growth there

It was my time to go

Don’t cry for all the Could Have’s

The What If’s and If Only

Let go of all the guilt you hold

Then you won’t feel so lonely

I Graduated life there

And into Heaven’s light

I live within God’s peace here

My soul is perfectly Bright

Life there is but a chapter

Of a book that carries on

I’m just on the next page now

I really am not gone

The Angels up in Heaven

Help me watch you as you live

Your life there isn’t over yet

You have so much to give

Your life there will touch others

Just as my life there touched you

So be sure to touch them softly

And place love within their view

Just know this will make sense someday

We will look back and smile

You are just merely passing through

We only stay there for a while

So please hold on to my love

As you walk through life each day

And know that I am right here

And Right here, I’ll always stay

 

Written With Love,

Fara Gibson Psychic Medium



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